Thing 2 made me laugh today.

I wanted to write this down before I forgot. My little thing 2 tried to bribe me today. He was talking about a toy he had when he was a baby. (that kid has an amazing memory) It was a little basketball hoop for babies. He was remember how much he liked to play with it when he was a baby. Then he ask where it had gone. I told him it was long gone. I might have donated it I really can't remember. Well, he looks at me with his cute little brown eyes and says "Mom, if you go and find it I will give you a quarter!" LOL!

OK, I might or might not offer quarters every once and a while to get stuff done. But I never imagined I was going to be the one offered bribes of quarters. It was so cute. That little sweet heart sure surprises me sometimes.

Feeling better.

So I finally exercised,showered and started to clean. I am feeling better. I just needed to get started for the day. I decided to clean my bedroom today and no where else. I usually clean my room last and sometimes it doesn't get cleaned at all. I figure the kids rooms are more important or the main level of the house is more important. But, I think maybe my room is what was making me blue. Not having a clean area just for me and the hubby. It looks better and I feel better. Now I just need to clean the master bathroom (blah).

Yes I am Blue...

Today I have a really bad case of the blues. I am having a hard time getting anything done. I am sick...I still have a double ear infection,cold,headache and well all around miserable. I am grumpy,lazy and my house is a mess.
I am sick of having no money and I really, really need a shopping spree. I want spring clothes for me and the children. My car looks and smells awful....It really needs a good scrub down. What is my problem? I am usually a go getter. I get stuff done no matter what. I just cant get started today and it was the same yesterday. The worse part is when I am grumpy and sick my hubby gets grumpy and acts sick. No sympathy there.

Man, I need to break out of this funk.

I am an awful writer...Thank goodness for my hubby!

So I know I am an awful writer. I can't spell and my punctuation is terrible. I know it is pretty embarrassing. But I have a great husband that will go through my blog from time to time and fix all of my mistakes. He loves me and really doesn't want me to look like a dope. So if you ever read a post and you can't stand the spelling or the punctuation don't worry soon my hubby will fix it. He is great at that.

My son loves the computer..

Well my Thing 1 has figured out how to use the computer and the DVR. When he gets a snack he looks for the web address on the box. Then he runs to the computer and types it in. Most of the time the web page is pretty lame. But the Gold Fish Crackers web page is pretty cute. It has cute little fishy games.

With my DVR he decided the other day he wanted to figure it out. Well he has been playing around with it pretty much none-stop. My DVR is located in my room for a reason. I don't want little fingers touching it. Well, I pulled up the menu to see what programs were there that I had recorded. Nothing but Sponge Bob Square Pants was recorded. I enjoy Sponge Bob as much as anybody but I don't want it on my DVR.

Today I was organizing the boys' room. Really doing a great job I was very proud of myself. Found a few toys Boogy can play with. While I was doing this I thought I was recording one of my favorite shows. But no, it was Sponge Bob again. Man, that little boy is sneaky. I don't have much of a life (I know poor me)but I love my Facebook and I love my DVR. Those are the two things that keep me sane some days. Now they are getting invaded by the little fingers. I guess I should have prepared myself.
I bet my Thing 1 will become some computer/T.V. genius and he can someday teach me how to use my blog so it will look better. We can only hope.

Then again he is quite the actor. Maybe all this T.V. business will make him a famous actor like Brad Pitt. That would be pretty neat. "Yes, that is my son Thing 1 he is a famous actor!" Yeah! I would love to say that in a snooty voice. Wait and see I guess.

Feeling a little frustrated....

Every time I talk to my boys' teacher she always tells me thing 2 is a little behind. She informs me what he needs to work on. Well I always get a little defensive. I work on those things all of the time with him. He gets it....He just hates showing anyone what he is learning. I really like the fact he doesn't care what others think. He knows his mom thinks he is the best and well, that is all he needs. But I really want the teacher to realize he gets it. I would really like him to show off a little. My boys are really smart...I just wish they would show off those cute little brains to their teacher a little bit more.
I guess I am just feeling a little bit frustrated.

Where is the Chocolate??

So today I am feeling a little blue. I don't know why....all I know is when I am feeling a little down I always crave chocolate! I haven't had any yet; I know you are thinking oh, it is OK just to have a little. Well, when I get my hands on chocolate I eat all of it. All the chocolate in the bag, box or wherever I can find it. I have been so strong resisting the urge to go and buy some today. But it has been soooo hard. I really, really want to lose weight and I know chocolate isn't going to help. Like I said in one of my last posts. I have to keep my eye on the prize. I want to be skinny!! Maybe not skinny but at least normal size. I want to fit into a seat with out my hips getting stuck. I don't want to worry about breaking a chair when I sit on it. I just want to feel normal. I want to feel sexy and pretty again. I can do it!! I just have to keep my hands off of chocolate and all the other treats I go for when I am feeling blue. I can do it!! Eye on the prize!

My husband is amazing!!

I really cant go into what my husband does for a living but I think he is amazing for doing it!!! He works hard doesn't make very much money and he loves what he does. He goes to work with a great attitude (most of the time) and is a great example to our kids. He is professional and committed to what he does. He will be receiving a few awards for the great work he did this last year and I am so excited...He hates the attention but I love it. I am soooo proud of him!!

Here is the part address to my hubby:
Great job babe!! You deserve it!! You are amazing and I love you sooo much!
You are great at your job, you are a wonderful father and you are an amazing husband!! I love your crafty projects and your fun science projects too. You are my best friend and the love of my life.
Thank You for doing such a great job and caring so much!

Progress on the New Years Goals

So I have lost 15 pounds!! I am feeling pretty great and I am keeping the carbs away.

I did use the credit card today...I am really disappointed with myself there. But we really needed to go grocery shopping and well we had no cash.

I have made some progress in the cleaning out of the garage. I threw away some junk and I have a load of stuff to take to the thrift store.

I haven't been exercising like I should. Maybe just three times a week. I would really like to exercise 4 or 5 times a week. I really need to work on that. Little Boogy is trying to get rid of her second nap which hurts my work out time....On a better note that means more Boogy time :-)

So, I need to work on exercise and not using the credit card. I have to keep my eye on the prize. I want to be skinny and debt free.

As far as Thing 2 writing his name without help. Well, we are still working on that.

Boogy Talks and yells!

My sweet little Boogy says a few words
"momma"
"popa"
"what dat?"
She also says one of her brothers names!!
She is getting so big....She has temper tantrums, my favorite one was her first one. She got mad at me and started crying. She followed me all over the house. Oh, she was sobbing! "Momma,Momma,Momma,Popa,Popa,Popa!" I wouldn't do what she wanted so she threw herself on the floor. I know it wont be cute in the future but for right now it was so cute! She is starting to become her own little person and boy does this cute little person get mad.
In a year I will be writing about how it is driving me nuts!

Spoke to soon..

Thing 2 had to get stitches yesterday night! The poor little guy slipped on the bathroom floor and his chin hit the ground. This is the first time I have ever got any of my boys stitches. I think it was harder for me then him and it was hard for him. My dear husband had to use his whole body to hold him down. That was after they wrapped him up like a mummy so he couldn't punch anyone. Oh, he screamed and called us crazy for doing this to him.
My poor little man!
It was kinda of funny when he called us crazy. He looked right into my eyes and said "You guys are all crazy!!!"
The doctor asked what he got for Christmas he said "I don't want to tell you!!"

He ended up with seven stitches on his cute little chin...My poor little man!

I got a little mad at the doctor because she was treating me like a bad mom for leaving him in the bathroom alone. He's five years old I think he can manage in the bathroom alone, most of the time anyways.

I think his fear of doctors just got alot worse...

So, Yesterday was a good day until Thing 2 had to get stitches! He did get a KitKat and Chocolate milk from his dad after the event. My poor little boy :-(

Doing great!

So, good bye 5 pounds!! I am feeling great and when I use the "dreadmill" I watch Bones....I bought the first season and I am loving it! What a fun show! My hubby bought me a new IPod that I will use to walk around the neighborhood if the snow ever goes away. I am eating better, but yesterday I had a hard time we went out to eat and I oinked out....But, today is a new day! No more oinking :-)

I also have great news a friend at work might be able to get me a couple of High School softball teams to volunteer for the Autism walk...I am so excited!! They just have to verify they don't have a game that day. But, I am still on the look out for volunteers!! I haven't been able to get anyone to commit yet to volunteering.

The children are doing great. Thing 2 is ready to drop out of Kindergarten. Thing 1 loves Kindergarten! My little Boogy is very vocal now. I just cant understand anything she says. It is so cute when she yells at me in her baby talk :-) I know that wont last.

So far today is a good day!

Thing 2 broke my heart today..

So I was upstairs folding clothes and I hear my little Thing 2 crying. He was crying really, really hard. I guess more like sobbing, Yeah he was sobbing. I ran like crazy down the stairs, grabbed him. I asked "whats wrong?"
(This really surprised me.)
He said "something really, really bad has happened to grandma!!"
Oh, my gosh I freaked out!
I ran to my phone and called my husbands mom.
She answered the phone
I said "Are you OK?"
"Is there anything wrong with you?"
I bet she thought I was crazy. She was fine, nothing wrong. At least not right now. So I told her what was going on with my Thing 2 she talked to him and tried to calm him down. (he was really crying hard still)
So I sat with him and tried to figure out what was going on. (his big brown eyes just break your heart if they have tears in them)
I finally figured out it was my mom he was worried about. He really misses her and was crying about her dying.
My mom died when he was around 15 months old.
So, I comforted him and told him she was OK. She is in heaven and she still checks on him to make sure he is OK. He was still pretty upset so I thought maybe looking at photo albums might be a good idea. He sat and looked at a couple of pictures of her holding him, and he was smiling and feeling alot better.
Oh, that just broke my heart!!
I have been having a really hard time not having my mom around anymore. I didn't think it would affect my kids so much since the were so little when she died.
I guess I have been so worried about myself (about my own depression) I never thought about my kids.
One of the last things my mom asked of me was to make sure my kids never forget about her. She was really worried about that before she went into her surgery. I told her she didn't need to worry because she was going to make it out just fine. Well, I was wrong she didn't make it. I need to make sure my kids remember her the way she would have wanted. She would have never wanted to see my Thing 2 crying for her. She loved laughing and I think she would want him to remember all the good times. He loved that photo album we looked at. I think I will need to bring out the album more.

January 1st 2009

WOW!! It is 2009 that is so weird... I wonder how many times I will write 2008 before I get it. I am guessing it will be mid February before I stop writing 2008 :-)
Happy New Year!!

Oh, and the goals so far are going great. Today I totally cut my carbs and exercised! I didn't use my credit card and I was thinking about cleaning my garage to. My thing 2 cant write his name yet but hey it is only the first day of the new year.